Our connections to each other, are what make us “human”.
Angels, elves, faeries, trolls, leprechauns, they’re all much more independent “beings” than human beings. Trolls will hide under a bridge and beat you up, but they don’t form gangs, with matching bandannas. Faeries can be friendly and sweet, but they’re much too flighty to be good parents, or medical professionals.
We are these flawed yet wondrous “beings”, due to our connections. Not to minimize our brains, physiques, or THUMBS! It’s just that loving, co-operating, learning, sharing, these are the BEST parts, of being human.
There was a time when I wrote fairly often. I have less interest, because I’ve lost my wonderful cheering squad of one-my Mom.
Whether or not she liked something, she was honest. THAT part is easy-I’m pretty honest and outspoken myself. However, she had the rare gift of finding the grain of goodness that exists in all people, all situations, and all blogs : ) . She led her conversation, with positive statements. Her first words, were kind ones. In sad situations, she looked for the silver lining, or the humor, or the important lesson that it afforded-the POSITIVE! THAT is difficult! I try to do that, but I’m not very good at it. <—–That statement, is proof!
If someone makes a careless remark, I often ascribe deep meaning to it. When friends or relatives make poor financial choices, or don’t follow through with what they promised, or should have done-I’m immediately disappointed. Somehow, my Mom was able to minimize the damage in such situations. My Mom could extract the one gem, in a pile of rubble, when others would have swept it all in the gutter. Finding the good, is like playing a game of hidden pictures, there is usually SOMETHING in there, if you look hard enough!
To act on faith or love (or whatever it was, that SHE had so much of) is one of the hardest things you can do. She did it , with speed and elegance! It was effortless and natural, for her. Until the end, each gesture or word, was the one most welcomed, or appreciated, by the listener. No matter what I told her, her reaction was always better than I thought it’d be. I never feared telling her the truth, because I knew she would (try to) see it my way. She never accused, or recriminated. That would be a HUGE challenge, for me. I could be a prosecuting attorney-I only lack the degree.
As I look on July 16th (the day my Mother passed away) it is with deep regret. Stupidly, I was not prepared for that. I used to brag “I’ll never feel guilt or regret about Mom, because we had so much time together”. I was wrong. Although she taught me a lot, I still had a lot to learn from her. That thought sinks in daily.
We were both teased often, about our extremely close connection. My Father’s statement, and it still makes me laugh, was “She’ll lie, and you’ll swear to it”. As with most humor, it’s the TRUTH in the statement that makes it funny, and makes you relate to it. IF she lied, I WOULD swear to it! I thought the world of her, it’s true! We were not very much alike. It was a mutual admiration society, and that’s why it was so gratifying, to both of us. We were meant to learn from each other.
In some ways, I wish she had been more like me-more adventurous, or at least, less home bound. She could have used a bit of my vanity-I’m a firm believer that a little hair combing, and a bit of mascara, can be a GOOD thing! I tried mightily to make her understand that the culottes, from the Blair catalog, were not that flattering.
We needed each other. As a human, she really needed MY help! As a spirit, I will ALWAYS need her help. I don’t know how much time I have left-but I hope to become all those wonderful things, that she already thought I was.